I'm staring in the mirror looking back at the person I hate (с)
want to cry - have to look like a fool.
want to sleep - have to sleep two or three hours.
want to have a dream - have to forget about it.
want to be happy - have to lie.
want to be friends - have to stay alone.
want to love - have to keep silent.
want to live - have to have a narrow escape for it.
want to die - have to live.
etc